In the reprieve of time out to remember a life now gone ...
However sad it is getting to do the farewells ... which you pay someone else to do generally in modern times ...
Having a prior career in the care of the older population, I had seen people passed on pretty early, before my nearest and dearest started the cycle of life and death ...
I have also had my fair share of many types of disabilities and chronic illnesses living with some along the way ... People passing out on me ... Epileptic episodes when medications are not functioning well ... This stood me in good stead with my late hubby's usual and unusual times with him at the end of his life ...
Although I have since lost my confidence in a lot of areas ...
I have a lot of self doubts ... For did I do enough ?
A lot has been said in responses to this ... And I know deep inside it was not me ... It was an unintentional slow suicide in one respect, hurried along a bit more with the cold of that time ..
And the harassment in not being believed how ill he was with both types of disability ...
And getting to die in dygnity at the end ... .
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